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Worried? Me; No Way!!

Well, hello everyone! Well as of last week, I had my CT and Bone scan done. Sooo, am I worried about the results of these tests? At first; maybe. Not so much now though. I had those tests before. And with God's grace; I am still here, Amen!! Grant it, I won't lie; it really does suck to have this! But,I shouldn't complain. It could have been worse. I could not have checked and never found out and not be here right now. But; I did check my breasts and found something that was a little unusual. And yes, so did my husband. I won't get into detail, though it is what helped me still be here today folks! And I still check for anything else unusual. I have to. I do my best also to stay positive; regardless of this trial that I am being put through. I stay strong for my children, because even though they know what I have and what I am getting done every week; I still want them to have a normal as possible kind of life. When they are at school, or even when they are home; I have that moment when I just want to cry or if I'm really in one of those moods when I need to punch a pillow or the bed, I come back to the bedroom. It really helps relieve all the pain and the frustration of this bad C word I'm going through. Yes, I do pray to our God everyday and every night. He knows me! He knew me before I was born, before I was even thought of; period!! And with all the prayers I'm getting; and the support of everyone who knows my family & myself; (even those who don't know us as well praying for us), Thank you!! It is very comforting to know. This coming Thursday I start another 'round'! You see, I go three weeks on; one week off. Then on the fourth week; which is this coming week; I get all 3. Blood work, Doctor, & last but not least the infusion area for my chemo treatment! I will also be hearing the results of last weeks tests. Like I said, no worries. I leave it in God's hands! I'm praying that no matter what I hear; I will keep on moving! With my other tests that weren't as great, something was done about it! They are doing they're best to keep me around for as long as possible, they know that rest is up to God! Yes, I mention God all the time in my blogs! And I have no shame in doing so! I believe in him, and I believe he is keeping me here for a really good reason! And so I have a really good reason to be greatful to him!! God is good indeed! One of these days though, I am bound and determined to get a pink wig!! And where it to represent everyone going through, or has fought and won, or for those fought and are no longer with us! I feel we are all a big family going through this! We are bound together! It really sucks having this! But I know we can stick together and fight this! Also, I wouldn't mind having a purple wig either; to represent all types of cancer. I probally sound silly. But, that's alright; because sometimes I am silly! Lol, can't help it! Besides, there is nothing wrong with being a little silly once in a while! If it's what gets a person through the day, or if you had a hard day. It helps to have a silly moment! Well, that is all for right now. I have to get up early this morning. Yes, I said, this morning, because it is after 1:30 am right now on my side of the fence, for those who live in different time zones. God Bless, and have a good one! Peace....

Hospital, is where I did this.

Watch "My Stupeflix Video" on YouTube: Hope you all like this one. It was done one their laptop, while getting my chemo treatment done.

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Watch "New year, and a good one sofar!" on YouTube

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Thanks!!

Thank you everyone for reading my blogs. I do my best to keep everyone posted about whatever is going on in my life, about my hospital visits. I know that I don't blog like, every day, or even every week for that matter! I'm sorry about that! I guess I should try a little bit harder? Well, please don't take this the wrong way everyone; I have been trying really hard to make my blogs readable. I have tried everything imaginable to; like all these other fabulious bloggers; to earn some extra dough. Doesn't seem to be working?!!!!! No!!! I have been bloging since 9/2010. Since then I have been I have been trying earn a $$$$!!! I have been checking my earnings, $0.00 everytime! And, yes I check my stats too. That's how I know I have readers! How do these other bloggers do it?! That is my question! Rock And Droll, Good Girl Gone Green, That Damn Pam etc.!! How in the freakin world do they do it?! Ever since watching Local 4 news in Detroit, about these ladies who are mom bloggers; earning money, I was like wow! I got to try this!! Don't get me wrong; I am not a money hungry person. I enjoy bloging because I get to vent about whatever is on my mind! It helps to get it off your chest! Very theraputic!! I don't metion names either. That's personal info. people! However, I wouldn't mind earning some income for something that I enjoy doing without leaving home. And, for some reason still not seeing those zereos going anywhere! I can't help but wonder if it's the Blogger page itself, do I need to go find another that will actually help me earn some income doing something that I really enjoy doing? Right now I'm doing this from a phone. Because, for a while, since Sept./ Oct., we haven't have internet. Paid the bill on Friday when I finally had some money to pay it. Long story short. I have to call back and try to get our service back on so our computer can be used again! I like my phone; can't complain, and I shouldn't on that note! So, there you have it folks! Once again, Thank you for reading my blogs! God Bless, and take care! Peace...

Can't Think Of Title?!

Hello! Long time no write! How's it going for everyone. Especially those who are struggling to keep a roof over your heads, and can't seem to get the help that you need from places that you are expected to go to get the help. Working your behind off only to pay others off that you owe, and to top it off paying on the car again because something else was worked on. So, a few weeks of paying a hundred dollars out the paycheck that my husband works for. I know, I know, I shouldn't be complaining right. Can't help it. Grant it; I should be greatful all the help I have been getting. And all the prayers I have been getting too! I really did have a good day today, it's just that I wish I could either hit the jackpot; or maybe  find a brief case with at least; $10,000 in it to pay five thousand and something to pay the rent in full. One hundred and fifty dollars we would normally pay every week. I would just like to be up to date. I wish he could just take take the fifty bucks that we have for him. But, I will just pray that everything will be alright for us. I'm doing my best to earn some kind of money from my blogging. Keep checking my stats; not a dime!! Not giving up though.  Not really hip on asking for any kind of help. I believe in working hard to pay the rent, other bills, & food, we have been getting that kind of help with the food. Which we are all truely greatful!!  Anyone knows what it feels like asking someone for so much as a hundred dollars to go with the fifty dollars you already have?! It sucks; it really sucks. It's not a good feeling at all. Those who know me, and those who have read my past blogs, know why I'm not working right now.  I'm supposed to be consentrating on getting better; not worring about getting kicked out in the street! Peace of  mind is what I need right now. Got too much on the brain. I know I should let it go up to God Our Father; and a lot of my worries I have. I'm just wondering; how much longer? How much longer? Well, that is all for now. God Bless, and have a good one folks!!

It Could Be Worse

Hello everyone! Well, I have metioned a couple a days ago about my appointments on Wednesday and Thursday. Wednesday was my CT scan, injection, and bone scan. Went to my usual appointments on Thursday. I was told about my results yesterday. Well, before I get to that part; prior to these appointments; I have noticed that my right breast was getting a little bigger again. And it has been hurting like a Bleep!! Only at night time though. So when I seen my cancer doctor last week, I told them what was going on. That is one of the reasons for these tests to get done. That, and it was time for them to get done anyway. Only, it was a rush to get it done, and get the results faster than usual. Okay; here are the results people; the swelling that was thought to be a reaction to the previous chemo treatment that I was on, wasn't. It is indeed the mass growing again. And there was a spot found on my liver again, and a spot found on my lower spine. Not to worry though, my back is not hurting! And according to the doctor that is a good thing!! So, I was going to get my previous chemo treatment done; but I metioned that I want to start on the new one. So, I started on the new one yesterday. It's called; Paclitaxel Chemotherapy Regimen. And, unlike the other treatment that I have been on since late summer; I will be loosing my hair with this one. But, that is fine, grant it, I'm not thrilled about it, as long as it gets this nasty bad word out of my system. That is what I am aiming for anyway! With my Father in Heaven's help of course! I said it before, I love God with all my heart, so I am not deniying him!! He has gotten me through some tough times, and this is one of them that he is helping me through right now! He is putting me through this test to see how well I can handle it! I will keep praying that God will get rid of this bad c word I have. Until then, I have to be patient! Praying for my husband though, usually he is the strong one. He wasn't too happy with the news at all. Along with everything else that is going on right now! It's getting to him big time. Not an easy thing to hear. I am a lot stronger than I used to be. Not that I never been a strong person. I just take so much crap; then it gets to me, I let it out. Being strong doesn't mean you don't cry. It doesn't make you weak either! And I realized that not too long ago. We're all human, and all have our breaking point sooner or later. Their is nothing wrong with being a strong person, it's just not healthy to hold it in! I was told a long time ago when I was young, to let it out, don't hold anything in! Get it out of your system. Not that I did all the time. Only sometimes. I'm usually a pretty quiet person anyway. So, I can understand why my husband is just not too happy to hear my latest news. My two boys know what's going on. I know it is affecting my 15 year old. He is having those kind of days at school that is not too good. I will try and be careful of what I say. But I can't help but metion this, he said something that no one, not even the schools will take lighty. He said, he wanted to end his life a few days ago. He has been seeing a counsler for a couple of years now. It was brought up when my husband and my mother - in -law went. The grandma brought it up of course. Because, of course my son wouldn't. I'm not sure why my husband wouldn't, normally he would bring up something about whatever else was going on with our son. Okay, well let's just say that I'm not too thrilled about what my oldest is saying these days. I am doing my best as a parent to make sure he does what he is supposed to do. I tell him that I love him everyday. I don't make him do anymore than what I ask him to do either. I stay on him as I stay on my youngest son. I love them both the same. I wouldn't have it any other way. I can never picture my life without my children. We we weren't born parents, but we al do the best we can as a parent. We all make mistakes, so when society thinks you have to be supper Mom & Dad; tell them to get a life. Sorry to sound so blunt everyone. Just trying to get my point across! Well, did I? Lol! Like I said, earlier, I am stronger than ever. But it's not always that easy. I'm already going through a tough time, so bring it people!! Okay, that is all everyone, I have to go. I am at the library again. But hopefully I will be getting the internet on next week. We will see what happens! In the mean time, God Bless, and take care everyone!! Peace...

Blah!!

Yep, it's a blah kind of day today. Sorry I haven't blogged since last week. Won't have internet until next week. So I will probaly be blogging more or posting videos from Youtube up. Until then, I will not be on it as much. Especially tomorrow and Thursday, have appointments to go to. Can't miss those; very important!! I will let you all know how it goes. Yep, tests coming up again. Staying positive though! Sorry; don't have a lot to say right now. That, and I'm in arush to get home and have something to eat! Have a good one everyone! God Bless!! Peace...

At The Library.

Hello everyone! Yup, guess what, I am at the library right now! Reason being; no internet at home right now. Hey, sometimes you have to sacrifice one thing to keep something else running! After a while you figure things out. It sucks to be without internet, but it could be worse. You're most important bills come first. So yeah, the internet had to wait this time. So, I won't be on the computer when I would like to be. Just when the kids are at school in the morning. And of course, when I don't have my appointments. I may be here everyday, or every other day. Just depends on how I'm feeling I guess! Hopefully we won't be too long without internet at home. The only other time I would be coming to the library is to print out some coupons. Which I haven't done in a while. My mother- in - law has been sending coupons my way. And every once in a blue moon, my husband gets a Sunday paper. So... I thought since I have some change for once; I thought I might as well get some more coupons! We have a printer at home but, we just haven't bought any cartridges for it yet. Well, that is all for now! Enjoy your day or evening! God Bless! Peace...

40 And Well... Wow!!

Yessiry, I am 40; Yikes!! For some reason I felt a little different yesterday. The last time I felt different; was when I turned 20. Didn't feel different at 30. Nope, not a thing!! Hard to explain, maybe I should have blogged about it right at that moment yesterday, or write it down so I could have put it in this blog today. Dangit, why didn't I think of that? Oh well, stuff happens; you're only human, what can you do?! 40 doesn't seem too bad at all, I am actually very thankful to be here at this age!! I will keep on fighting this bad word that I have. I'm doing my best to be around for some more Birthdays to come, each year will be a Blessing from God that I am still around! I am still extremely gratful to Our Father in heaven for everyday that I'm here! I could have not found out at all about my type of breast cancer, if I haven't checked. I checked; and found what I thought was a lump. Ended up being something even worse. And as of one year ago yesterday is when I found out the news. Actually, I heard cancer; the rest sounded like adults talkng in Charlie Brown. Not only did I have my first mammo that day; a couple of other tests done that day when my husband took me. A day later is when I recieved a call about the biopsy that was done, that's when I remember hearing the words; inflammatory breast cancer. I was almost in tears, because I was trying to be strong. But when I let my husband know, I couldn't hold it in much longer. There were so many thoughts going through my mind. At that time, I was like why did I get this type of cancer that I never heard of at all, not even my family memembers heard of it. I was so angry, hurt, and parden me, ( pissed ) off! Especially when I kept hearing more, and more not so great news. I was supposed to start chemo last year, when on the day I was to start; I recieved a phone call from the Doctor saying that there was a couple of spots found, we need to get you in for more tests just to make sure. Long story short, the spot on the breast bone, cancerous, the spot on the liver, nothing to worry about. I went from a stage three to a atage four in no time! The spot on the bone did it. The feeling when I heard the not so great news that day; what do you think I felt like?! It wasn't a good day at all! No offense toward my doctor; he is just doing his job. I got my crying out that day, but the day after that; I was like, wait a minute, no one here on earth knows, only God knows!! From then 'til' now; big difference!! I know that I bring it up about how thankful I am to God about a lot of things, my life included. I am not worrying about offending anyone! We are in One Nation Under God!! Freedom to speak our minds! I'm not leaving God out of my blogs at all!! I give credit when credit is due, Amen! I don't tell anyone how to live their life, I pray for them in silence. I can't help it, I love Our Father In Heaven! I know is putting me through this trial for a reason. I am not thrilled to have this, but everyday is a Blessing! I have my moments when I shed a teer, but I get through it. Being strong doesn't mean that you don't cry. You can only be strong for so long, eventually you are going to let go, let it out!! So let go, get it out of your system. Oay, I know, I went on rambilg again! The point is this; I am happier this year than I was last year at the time I found out the news. So much has changed since then, as you can tell from reading my past blogs. There is a difference. Yesterday was a good day, because 1. I wasn't at the hospital getting a mammo done like I was last year on my Birthday. And 2. my husband had a day off and cooked me a brunch!! This year is good indeed!! And well, was starting to get my cake going for tomorrow,but the eggs that we bought not too long ago are frozen! So he's at the store right now getting more eggs. Why not yesterday,because he works only until 5pm tomorrow. So he will be making a special dinner that he said he is going to cook, wow!! And it's Sweetest Day This weekend too! Oy, what pressure!! His day is in March. And everyday of the week before then, he, he!! He gets fed with my cooking!! Wow, stil can't believe I'm 40. I remember being teen hearing this: Teenagers!! Now I'm saying it! Lol,weird. Good greif time flies!! Now my nieces and nephews are in their 20's, one 18, one his 30's. Wow!!! The part I'm looking forward to is bening a great aunt any day now. Next week!! So excited!! Well, that is all!! God Bless, and have a good one!! Peace...

Pay The Rent; Or Feed Family? Landlord On Vacation!!

Yep, we used some of the rent money to buy food. Mainly; meat. That's what we brought, and some other things that were needed of course. Yes, money is tight, and yes; our food bennifits on the Bridge Card is gone. Reason being; we're just a little bit over the limit to get that program now. As for the cash part, I will find out tomorrow if that is still avaliable or not. I hope it still is. No, I really don't like depending on this stuff! Yeah, money is tight again. But, we will make it. Now the part that sucks is that we had to use the money saved for the rent to buy some stuff that was needed to feed everyone. So yeah; I am hoping that the cash part is on that card tomorrow! Yes we are still playing catch up with the rent that is stil behind. The landlord lets us pay it every week. But last week, and the week before they haven't recieved a payment yet. But, they haven't done anything about our boys' bedroom yet. It hasn't had power in their for almost a year, since the dryer was hooked up in the bathroom. And it has been brought up many times, nothing has been done. I kow it's because we're behind that they won't fix anything. Rightfully, they are supposed to make sure something gets taken care of no matter if we're behind or not! So yes, I do have a lot on my mind right now. Again, but that is alright, because God has my back. I'm going to relax and leave it his hands. He has the power to do whatever he sees fit!! And he making sure that I am here to face these issues everyday; whether I feel like it or not. I have my days just everyone else. And I get through it too, just like everyone else. Yes from what I was told the landlord is on vacation. So yes the money that was put up 'til' he got back, was used for the meat that was much needed. What would you do in this situation. I know how to make food stretch. But you can only stretch it sofar. You figure things out. Sometimes you gotta weigh out your options. Pay rent to someone who's not making sure your place is getting worked on when something needs fixed? Or make sure your family has a proper meal to eat breakfast lunch and dinner? Hmmm?!! We don't try to skip out on paying rent like they get out of fixing our place for upteen months!! So yes, the family has to get fed, to keep ourselfs healthy and keep our energy levels up to get through the day! That is a major plus for me because I'm getting those chemo treatments done, and it makes me tired. I take little cat naps in the mornng, after I take my youngest to school. It's a struggle staying awake. But I manage. I find something to do even if it's one thing; it gets done. Okay I know, I went off track! Oops, my bad!! Just rambling on! But I pretty much said, what I wanted to say,' and hopefully I got my point across! Well, that is all everyone! God Bless, and have a good one!! Peace...

'80's Music; All Kinds

No, I don't have any posters to post on my blogger to show you. But,I can tell you what I do remember about the '80's!! Bits and pieces that is. Yes, even some of those T.V. shows too; Comedies, and dramas! Even a show about a talkng car people! Ah yes, Knight Rider; sigh...Yes, I'm a little embarassed to say this; I had a thing for the Hoff man! Yes, I thought he was cute! That,and I liked the car, and the theme music too!! The theme music was awsome!! And I used to have a poster of him too; until someone tore it off the wall! So much for that picture; lol!! To this day, I still don't know who did it. Hmm!! I never had my own room growing up, so it just made me wonder at that time. Oh well; I moved on to Michael J. Fox when the first Back To The Future movie came out. That's when I thought he was cute! I never had a really had any crushes on musicians until the late '80's, like the late lead singer of Warrent; Janelane. Rest in peace dude. I loved the songs too that Warrent came out with also. I loved that song Heaven the most, "cause" toward the end of the video when he winked with his pretty blue eyes; aww man, I thought I was in Heaven!! Ahh, the big hair bands of this lovely decade!!! I did not have big hair in that decade. Not until the early 1990's. No, it wasn't to big either. I would get told that I looked like a witch from a couple of people. Oh well, lol it didn't bother me one bit! I took it as a compliment!! When 1985 hit; my hair was short for the first time. It freaked me out at first, but it didn't take long to get used to it though. By 1989, my hair was long again!! It was close to my behind. Then one day I cut it to where my sides were growing out. They were long enough. So I cut it to that length, just above my shoulders. The reason I did that,was because I wanted an even length. From then on, I let my hair grow longer, until it grew down to my behind again. Ahh yes; the good ole days when I was young! There were some good times, and bad times. Would I change anything? Maybe a couple of things. Other than that; nope! It was the days of those '80's and early '90's that are a part of my History of Life! Can't, and won't ever change a thing! No, I never did anything illegal. I didn't follow down that path, I followed my own path. What I meant by not changing a thing; is the style of clothes I wore, whether they were hand me downs, or some new clothes; yes I did dress funny, lol! No, I didn't dress skimpy either. I didn't always match either. I was just trying things out. I was a teenager! Freedom of expression, lol! I didn't dye my hair funny colors though. I first got my hair colored when I was 14. My first perm when I was 13. All done by someone who has been a part of the family for a long time; was taking beautition classe and had a test coming up. So guess who was praticed on; yep me! That's when I got my first perm. My parents were pretty cool with it too, even when she colored my hair for the first time. It was Dark Auburn. You never forget your fist hair color, he, he!! I colored my own hair when I turned 17. Now, I am back to my naturel hair color. Dark brown. I always tried to stick with something close to my naturel hair color. Well, as of next year, after my oldest turns 16, he gets to have his hair colored. He already knows what color he wants to. And, you know what; I'm alight with it! Can't say I'm exactly thrilled about it, but after all; my husband and I decided that 16 was the age to get his hair colored. We didn't tell him what color to go with. At least I didn't at first any way, my husband did. Now he just shakes his head. It's all about freedom of expression! There is enough going on, coloring hair isn't a crime people. Well, that is all, God Bless, and take care! Peace..

Awsome!!

Well, today I had my visit with my doctor, in between the blood work and the chemo. All is very good!! The chemo is working people; the chemo is working!! Amen!!! I am so thanking God for this, I couldn't be more happy to hear something like that. And yes, unlike the last visit, when my blood count was too low for me too get my treatment, today was a good day. My protien and calcium is good also. Can't complain. Grant it, I'm not always thrilled about going. Who is? But I know that I'm not the only one. I get a break on my Birthday though. Three weeks on one week off. And I know I'm going to like that day for sure. Well, good bye to the thirties!! The forties are coming! I don't mind telling my age. It's just a number, and you're only as old as you feel! Well that is all folks! God Bless, and have a good one! Peace...

Not Really Sure!

I guess some people have a truly beautiful and meaningful life. Others; umm... well, not so much. Not too sure about people who really have it made. I don't think that they are truly happy. But then again; maybe they do have it all! The beautiful, meaningful part included. You don't for sure, unless you knew this person or, persons before they hit the big time. Some just lose sight, and let it go to their head. Some still haven't forgotten where they came from, and are still the most beautiful persons they once were when they first started! Don't mind me, I'm just ramboling on; just about anything I guess. Getting a little frusterated too! Keep checking my Adsense page to see if I earned anything from my blogging yet.$ 0.01. And been like that since last month. Well, at least it went up a little bit. Better be careful and not spend it all in one place. He! He! I started doing this blogging since last September, it took me a few months to figure out how to earn money doing this! I read some stuff. But, I just would like too read about the things I need to know without a whole bunch of information! Is it because maybe that I have too many ads? I haven't done any deleting or rearanging in a while. It's been a couple of months since I done that. I don't mean to sound like a whiner or a b word. I just would like for once to make a little extra money, and I haven't seem to be getting no where! Do my blogs need some work done? please let me know! Thank you, God Bless!! And have good one! Peace...

A Fictional Story About Something That Happens Everyday To Someone

Wow; here it goes people. This is a story of a couple that has been married for quite some time. They seemed like the happiest couple,they went plcaes together; they builded a home together. Shared some laughters, and shred some tears. Even though they have been married for some time; twenty something years to say the least, it really hasn't been that long.But long enough to go through the good and bad times. Wiping each others tears; making each other laugh. Until, all of a sudden, one day everything started to change. It was like it happened in an blink of an eye. All of a sudden, just like that; bam, they lost that spark ingnighted their flame! The best part is that neither one really knew that was even going on! They just went about what they always do in their married life. Only, something was missing; hmm what could that be? Lack of intimatacy.It's neither one's fault, it's something tht can happen in everyones married life. And of course, another thing that happens in a married life when one or both are losing that intimacy for each other; one of the two will start looking for someone else online, or through these 800 numbers and a lot of texting too. Okay, it was the husband that started doing this. Only, the wife had no idea this was going on, because she was always going about what she always did in her daily life. But, it didn't take long for her to notice that something wasn't right; she just couldn't quite put her finger on it just yet. Though,very persistant; this faithful wife of twenty something years to someone that she still loves unconditionally, will not give in until she gets down to the bottom of this! Though, yes she won't let her husband know that she is doing this either. She just goes about doing what always does in her married life. Holding down the fort, by cooking, cleaning, paying their bills, and taking care of their children that they both love very much. This husband of hers, works in an office. Usually works decent hours five days a week 365 days a year. Okay, she just found one piece of the puzzle, all of a sudden, he starts working later hours; which doesn't make any sense. No one at this place of of work, did any over time! That was cut out to keep this place going, and everyone employed. Okay, long story short; you know men no offense guys; anyway,someone accidently left his cell phone in the livingroom one night; on the charger of course. Not very smart. I guess he was so tired that he wasn't thinking straight. Lucky for his wife; yes, she had to do it! She has to find out if her suspiciousions were true or not true. Yes, the text messaging started already. And sure enough her suspicious mind was right all along! How do you think she felt after all these years? All these years without complaining, this person who put her heart and soul into everything! She loves unconditionally. She always did the best that she could in everything that she did, no matter what! Now; she is wondering, after all these years what in the world did she do wrong?! What did she do wrong?! Yesserie, her mind is racing a million miles a second! What do you think this person should do first? Calm down and pray while taking some deep breaths? Or should she go balistic? I like the first one better. Does anyone agree with me on this one? Beacuse praying is something I do everyday when I just need a moment with our LORD God. Yes, it works! Please don't knock it. Well, that is all for now. Please, by all means; don't hesitate to give some imput. It is much appriciated. Thank you everyone! Have good one, and God Bless! Peace...

Happy Saturday!!

Hello everyone!! What's up? And how's everything going? Not too bad on this end. Only thing is my husband's check was a little low this week. Not that he didn't work any hours; it's because, not too long ago he had his car worked on at the shop, and the boss is taking a hundred dollars out of his check every week. He shows me his check stub all the time, not that I ask him to; he just does it. Anyway, he showed it yesterday, origenally it was three hundred and something. With the $100 taken out; it was only two hundred and something. Well, also stoped at the store because we needed a few things,and he also brought his mom some pop. And he put a full tank gas in the car, which is about fifty bucks, depending where the needle was at. The car is about twenty years old. It doesn't have to go far for that needle to drop. Just going to Livonia and back that lovely needle starts going down quick! But, on the bright side, no car payments!! Well; the only thing that is bugging me right now, is the landlord. As you all know from my past blogs; yes we are still behind on our rent, but he takes payments from us every week. Considering that my husband's check was kind of low, not this Saturday. My husband called and ended up leaving the landlord a message explaining why he couldn't pay him this time. I hope he will be understanding about it. Which he should be, because originally, a payment of $150 every week was the agreement; Now all of a sudden, it's $200 every week! Which is fine, but sometimes when able to pay that much. The last couple of times we were only able to pay him $150. This week, $0. He should be alright with it this week. Because for months we have been letting them know about our kids bedroom being without power. Still hasn't done anything about it. And in the living room, on of the windows leaks every time it rains, which is why we have a this white plastic up with a bunch of tape, and it's a wooden panel, so the blinds that were there when we moved in, kept falling down. They take forever in a year to do something. I know I shouldn't complain much, But how many months should a tennate wait to get their place worked on? Unfortionatly , we don't have any back up money, otherwise we could refuse to pay the rent until everything is done to our satisfaction. Yes we do rent, so there for they are supposed to make sure something such as electricity in a any room be taken care of! It's just one room, and for months they haven't made any effort to make sure that it gets taking care of! They bring in these other trailors and fix them up. Even though we been waiting for ours to get done! And yes it gets brought up to him every time! I know a lot people are going through the same situation as we are; and I know that in other countries there are other people on God' Green Earth have nothing! No food, no clean water, no clothes, health issues, and no proper education! I know that! I don't mean to sound ungreatful for what I don't have! I am extremely greatful for everything that I do have! I just need to vent every now and then. If I don't; then my health will get worse than it already is! And I really do not want that to happen If I can help it. well, now that I got all that off my chest; I have some awsome news that I already shared with my friends on Facebook. I had my three usual appointments on Thursday. The blood work, cancer doctor, and of course the infusion area for the chemo treatment. When I seen my doctor, I was told by his student doctor that my right breast went from a 54, to a 36!! Awsome!! and the lymphnodes have shrunk too. And my blood is good also!!! So Yes it was a good day! And yes, that is definatly one of the many things to be greatful for! Still feeling a little sluggish, but I am doing my best to eat right. Grant it I haven't been doing any exercise lately. But I still move around. Which is better than sitting constantly. 'Cause' that' not good on my health either. I do what I can do. Then I rest until I have the energy to get up again. So, yes it's a struggle everyday, I do my best! And I know I am going through this for a reason; it's God's way of telling me to take care myself. Yes I will admit that it sucks going through this. But, I'm doing it with a possitive, and with a fighting attitude! Well, that is all everyone! God Bless, and have a good one! Peace..

Don't Know What To Call This Blog!! Hmm!!

Hello everyone!! How's it going?! Doing alright on this end! A little tired at times, but I think you all know why; right? Sure you do, those of you who have read all of my past blogs know exactly why I feel tired at times. Here is one for you; those of you who do read my blogs; if you don't mind please leave an answer in the comment section as to what it is that is making me so tired, that I don't even blog as much as I was! I just send something to lift up your spirits; or I send something from You Tube! I do my best and try not to let the tiredness get the best of me. It's not easy! And, unlike the beginning of last school year; this time around will probally be more of a challenge for me, considering! But, like with everything else; you always figure it out eventually! Right?! Right. Yep, it could be worse! Everyday is not the same for everyone; including myself. I'm no expert; whether you're having a good day or bad; you always have someone to talk to about your day! Am I right people? Please don't hesitate to let me know in the comment section, it will be greatly appriciated! Well, that is all everyone! God Bless, and have a good one!! Peace..

No More Hormonal Treatments

Hello everyone!! How's it going sofar? Not so bad on this end. Well, as you already know; I had my first chemo treatment last week. It took a couple of days to adjust to it, after that; not so bad!! Had my second dose yesterday. Doing better this time around on this dose. I was told that it can get worse, but it also depends on the person. I feel that I will get better as it goes. With God's help of course! He has a lot to do with all the help and support that I have been getting!! It definatly helps keep my spirits up; even though, yes their are times that I do feel low, I don't stay down for long! I get back feeling alright! I haven't lost my faith in God at all! I just have my moments like everyone does. He knows each and everyone of our hearts; he knows us personally! It is so awsome to know that he has my back all the time! All the time!!! I'm fighting hard everyday, I'm doing my best to take care of me; and my children! I make eating healthy my number one priority, then, it's exercise. Though, being on those hormonal treatment pills wasn't helping me with the weight part, none the less; as of last month or so it seemed to not work well in the other department either, go figure. Grant it, I wasn't to happy to hear that it wasn't working very well. But, on the bright side of this, maybe I will be able to get the weight off a lot better than I was? We'll see what happens!! I will keep all informed of course. I know that eventually I will not get that time of the month again. Well, since the hormonal treatment stopped, and I'm not getting my overaies shut down now, Yes folks, please excuse me for saying this; but yes; it is that lovely time of the month again!! I also know that eventually after a while it's going to stop again! I don't know how long these treatments are going to last,I will be asking my doctor when I see him again of course. In the mean time, it's three weeks on, one week off, three weeks on again! That's what is going on everyone! And of course, that is all for now too! God Bless, and have a good one! Peace.

Ahh...., The Joy Of Blogging!

Yes, blogging can be a good thing; you can definatly get a lot of venting done for sure! Yes, I know; I put some other things in here in between my blogs. I do it because, I give my, ( you the readers), something to either to read, & I even put videos in there too. It's just something that I do! Well, here is the latest update; I'm not taking the hormonal treatment as of last week. As of three days ago now, I recieved my first dose of chemo treatment at the hospital. I was on two different hormonal treatments before this, the first didn't work so well at all! the second, Arimidex; was working for a few months. Until about, June, and earlier this month of July, my right breast wasn't cooperating. so... just the week before when I went to go see my cancer doctor; I was givin my test results from my CT, & Bone scan. Well, the spots are still their, and of course, the righty isn't budging too good. Go figure! It could have been worse though. So, that's when I was this: do you want to go another month taking the Arimidex; or do you want to go ahead and start the chemo. I didn't take too long to answer; Chemo was my answer. I had a choice of taking the pill, or getting the treatment done in the hospital. That's why I came back to see him three days ago; to let him know which one to go with. I decided to get it done at the hospital. It was my personal choice. As long as I'm able to get there, which I will be. I feel it would be easier that way for me personally. So, that is what's going on people! It' not fun to talk about, but it's good to get it off my chest! Well, that is all for now! God Bless, and have a good one. Take care; peace.